(newest entries at the bottom)
January 6, 2001
Hmmm a little late this year. Well, 2000 was quite a year for me. I learned what friendship really is about. I cried. I learned that once a liar, always a liar. And cried some more. I felt the chill death as it passed over me. I learned how to struggle and push and shove my way to the top. I looked deep inside and stumbled upon what I've been looking for. I found out what it is like to smile so much that your cheeks hurt. And laugh till I cried. And how good it feels to be held in loving arms. The past month has been SO VERY HECTIC! This year is off to a quiet start... and I'm glad to have the break. One more thing.... Always keep your friends close... and your enemies even closer. *grin*
January 16, 2001
I'm going to *try* to keep up with my page a little better. I have lots to say, but I haven't had the time to put my thoughts down. Today is day 10 of being sick with the flu or some other bug. I'm tired of being sick. I'm ready to go DO something....but what??? " Thanks for the memory of sunburns at the shore.... nights in Singapore.... you might have been a headache but you never were a bore, so thank you so much."
January 18, 2001
My girls.... how my beautiful girls have touched me and taken me to wonderful places. Oh the time we have spent together. My girls have left many a fingerprint on my soul. Such lovely heartfelt words. Such feathery touches sending shivers down my spine.... Meet my girls: Tori Amos Sarah Slean Fisher
January 20, 2001
I did a lot of work on my page today. I added a Barbie section. Updated my Tori Trade page. Changed my button colors. I'm tired. Going to bed early tonight. It's too cold for anything else besides crawling under the covers.
January 27, 2001
I didn't do anything at all today besides sleep! Now that night is here, I'm pretty much awake. We could have gone out, but I have been so busy all week that it feels good to do nothing. The bar scene doesn't really interest me anymore. Sometimes I think about how it used to be and I miss going out. It'll never be the same though. I've learned that it's useless to try to re-create moments past. Just because it was great once doesn't mean it will be always. Staying out all night and drinking and partying used to be great. Now after 1-2 drinks I'm ready to call it a night. I guess that means I'm getting old!
February 4, 2001
It's funny how your idea of things should be and how reality differs. It's like when you meet someone, and they seem so great. But later on, that greatness is replaced by reality. Because of the initial experience, you think of them to be one way, and they turn out to be totally different. People can be so fake. Or sometimes it's just the situation that clouds judgment. * * * I've been having the most bizarre dreams. I wonder if they have any significant meaning? I woke up about 2:30 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep. I kept having all these weird thoughts. My first instinct was to page MILKMAN, but I didn't. After all, it was about 4 am!
February 6, 2001
WTF is wrong with Geo?? I haven't been able to FTP in days.
February 14, 2001
Ah, Valentine's Day. We did this. And we didn't see anyone we knew. I got this, this and this. And what a nice surprise it was.
February 15, 2001
Why so fascinated? Miss me? Just plain curiosity? What?
February 18, 2001
We finally broke down and bought bikes. This is mine. It's good exercise and I need it. I haven't had a bike since I was 15. *** There's a parade tonight, but I doubt that I'll go. I've got some pictures to add to my page, and some software to install. Next weekend is the weekend to party anyway....
March 1, 2001
In
Memory of Ms. Joann Cheramie, MILKMAN's mother. 
March 24, 2001
Happy Birthday, MILKMAN! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO!!
April 1, 2001
OMG the FBI called me!!!! OMG!! ............................................................. April FOOL..........................................
April 14, 2001
Thursday was nice. We ate lunch at the petting zoo. Toured the Mr. Charlie. Laid on a blanket under the oak trees in the park. Went biking. Went out that night. *** Choir practice is getting a big annoying*** Work has been busy. The next few weeks will be even more busy. I think I'm involved in too many things. It's overwhelming at times and it's hard to relax. I've neglected some of the 'little things' I used to do on a regular basis. There just isn't enough time....
April 17, 2001
Rescheduled for today. Absolutely wonderful....
April 27, 2001
I lie awake in the dead of night. I can't see a thing, but I know it's there. I feel it's silence... it's wicked grin mocking my every move. As I try to ignore it, I feel it growing stronger... closer... darker. I close my eyes and I run until I ache. I feel it laughing at my frivolous effort. I run only to feel it's warm sticky breath upon my neck. It's waiting for me, for the rain to start, for me to falter. Should I struggle to free myself? Should I fight? Or should I give into fate? Should I take the one God given gift? Should I submit and fall into forever darkness... forever nothing........
May 5, 2001
Jazz Fest. Cowboy Mouth. Dave Matthews. The people... people... and more people... unreal!
May 11, 2001
Someone got me sick. Kissin' on me.... givin' me germs. Ewwww! Just you wait! ;-)
May 20, 2001
May 23, 2001
MILKMAN,
when are you coming home???
June 27, 2001
I just glanced over The Archives, and I have to admit that I amaze myself at times. Did I write all of that? Yes.... but I also lived it. I know I haven't written much lately, and I don't know why. I really need to update more.... just because I want to look back next year and remember. "The idle brain is the devil's playground". When things are quiet, we have more time to think.... and have thoughts creep up on us. Right now I've reached this warm, safe, content place. It's like slipping on warm fuzzy slippers in the winter.... or sliding under the cool bed sheets in summer. I definitely wasn't looking... it found me.
July 3, 2001
Mmm. I love MILKMAN! Happy 1-year anniversary baby! XOXOXOXOXO
July 8, 2001
We had a great time! Can't wait till next year!
July 31, 2001
We were on the screens.... Sully pointed us out....... NO shit!
August 1, 2001
Wow, where have I been? My thoughts are just scattered all over the place. Life in general...... where things are going........ Can they get any better?? Possibly....... Spring 2003? The time is near. I've spent the past 10 years living the single life: partying... drinking... I've had many wild late nights with the girls. I've dated enough to know what I want and don't want. I see the girls dressed to kill in the bars and it makes me laugh. *I* used to be them! I was the one looking... waiting.... All of that seems so insignificant now. It's time to move on to what life is about. Love. Family. I still crave the nightlife, but it's completely different atmosphere when you are no longer single. Yeah, the more I think about it, 2003 gives us the right amount of time.
August 4, 2001
Howlin' Wolf in New Orleans, LA needs to fix their A/C! Whew.
August 5, 2001
Someone asked about you the other day. Yes, you there... reading this.
Oh how we laughed at your plight! Your secrets are secrets no more. Anything I can do to extend your peril will be gleefully done. For I am
consumed with hatred. It will never die. Whoever said it takes more energy to hold on to hate than to just forget was wrong! As long as
there is breath in me my heart will wish you only darkness for all your days....
August 24, 2001
Out of boredom I did some updating on my page tonight. Just moved a few things around and changed the colors. Not much else is going on at the moment. Looking forward to an upcoming vacation. We both sure do need it. *yawn* Hopefully I'll get to catch up on my sleep this weekend. I don't know where the time is going.
August 25, 2001
I love the way the sky looks when it is just about to storm. The distant dark clouds.... soft rumble of thunder... the wind in my hair. Then the sky breaks and the rain comes pelting down. What a nice comforting feeling it is to hear the sound of rain falling. And after the storm, the air feels clean and fresh as if all the wordly evils have been washed away. **** I am so ready to get away. The stress at work and being so busy all the time is really getting to me. Starting next week I'll be even busier!!! Whew. Ok.. hang in there. Two weeks to go... Come home soon MILKMAN.
September 14, 2001
Well, got back today from a 6 day vacation in D E S T I N, F L O I D A. What a great trip! We luckily had wonderful weather the whole time. We visited the Gulfarium, the Gulfbreeze Zoo, The Silversands Outlet Mall, the beach (beautiful!), ate at great restaruants, relaxed at the hotel pool.... etc etc. The beach was so pretty and the water was so clear! We walked hip deep, and could see the fishies swimming around our toes. The coolest thing we did was to take two sunset cruises searching for dolphins on the Seablaster and the Glass Bottom Boat. We saw dolphins everywhere. And the sunset was breath taking. We ~only~ took close to 200 pics, so you'll be seeing a lot of them.
September 15, 2001
I am SO glad that I got my T.A. tickets in the special presale. What was left to pick from was shitty!
September 26, 2001
Mildred 'Millie' was a stray kitten that I found in a ditch. She came
running out mewing sadly as I passed, so I had to take her home. We took her to the vet, and they suggested we put her to sleep because she
had an eye infection and was skinny. My mom promptly said we brought her here to SAVE her life, not end it. And we took her home and never
returned to that particular vet again. Millie grew up to be a big, fat, healthy cat.
She never was very friendly; most of the time she liked to be left alone. She was a scaredy cat, terrified of loud noises, plastic
bags, strange people, and she'd bolt at the sight of black shoes! Millie hid from everyone and it was rare that she made an
appearance to visitors. She liked to sleep under my bed, and when I wasn't looking
she'd sleep ON my bed. I didn't like that too much! Then there were the mornings when she'd jump in my bed and want to be loved. If my eyes
were closed, she'd pat my eyes with her paw and meow until I opened them and gave her some attention. We found her today, lying motionless on
the driveway. Sadly, Millie had a mysterious heart/lung condition that the vet was unable to identify. After
13 years, it finally got the best of her. Mildred, June 1988 - September 26, 2001.
October 19, 2001
We survived the House of SHOCK!
October 27, 2001
We survived AGAIN!
October 30, 2001
TORI DAY!!! Can you say.. SECOND ROW!! CENTER!
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We arrived in New Orleans about 12:00 to be sure we were there for the ticket upgrade. A section of pit seats has just been released, and they were swapping out tickets free of charge. I was #4 in line and we went from first balcony to second row in 15 seconds. MILKMAN and I headed to the Meet and Greet area, where we met some cool people. They all upgraded their tickets too and we were all sitting together! Tori didn't come out until about 4:20. The idiots cut in line, just as we figured they would. I was to the side, and at the last minute her security guys said ok.. two more.. you and you... which was me and this other girl next to me. He took our stuff and Tori signed it! We walked to the Quarter to eat, and were back at the Orpheum Theatre for 6:30ish. We were amazed at how close we were! Rufus opened, and he was OK. Then Tori came on and blew us all away! The show was amazing, despite rude people. Whoever the dude was that decided to spin a huge glow stick during LEATHER... WTF??? And the fat guy in front of us who kept yelling out songs.. and running to the stage.... then the other 500 people that ran to the stage and blocked our view.... I hope you liked the gum in your hair! mwwwaaah! Over all it was a wonderful Tori day! Those of you who know me know how much this meant to me.
November 24, 2001
I'm being lazy today. Just updated my Tori Trade page. The 2001 shows are surfacing and talk about great quality! Can't wait to get a copy of New Orleans. I have just been so busy that I haven't had the time for anything. Choir stuff, work, shopping, movies, music, dinners, misc other stuff.... I need to slow down... but there will be none of that until after the holidays. *nodding* Yes, Thanksgiving has passed us by and the holiday season is upon us. Is it just me, or has this year just flown by?? Christmas will be here before we know it... then we begin the year 2002.
Note to self: forget the past ... it's all trivial.... concentrate on the future that lies ahead...
Later.....
Sleepy.. so tired but yet sleep does not find me. I've been trying to keep myself busy these past few days. I got used to having Milkman home, and now he's offshore. I don't know what to do with myself! An office job for him would be so nice... keep your fingers crossed for us. Speaking of the past....... I sorted though some old stuff today trying to clear out some space. Ran across several sets of pictures that I didn't dare glance at. No need to take any trips back down that fork in memory lane. I found a couple of old journals.... as I skimmed over a few entries I was shocked at how much I had forgotten! The things that were life and death at the time are just trivial nonsense now. Funny how that is. It's kind of awkward to read how I swooned excessively over W.W. and M.M. And don't forget C.T. *girlish giggle* But I guess all of the past - the good, bad, evil - is part of who I am today.
November 28, 2001
It's amazing what kind of useless junk you can sell on Ebay!!
December 14, 2001
December 25, 2001
Merry Christmas!! And to answer your question, NO I did not get a ring. Eventually, just not right now. OK?
December 28, 2001
We had an awesome time. For those of you who aren't familiar with New Orleans, check out the main page: Celebration in the Oaks. We took a carriage ride around the park, (brrr it was freezing!), then walked through the Botanical Gardens, got some hot chocolate. Definitely something to add to the yearly holiday 'do' list.
December 30, 2001
Brrr it's cold today!! December sure has flown by. With all that we did this past month it's no surprise. I hope everyone out there had a nice Christmas. Ours was great. Milkman came home earlier than expected, so he was home for the holidays. I got some nice gifts, ate to much food, and enjoyed the time off from work. Announcement: we have a new addition to our family! New pics are up also on the photo page. Enjoy...
December 31, 2001
The last day of the year. I had to work all day - how sucky is that?? Our dinner reservations at Flanagan's were at 7:00, and dinner turned out very nice. I don't know why we had never eaten there before. On our way to the car it was sprinkling and we actually saw a little bit of snow mixed in. It was so C-c-cold! Although we enjoyed The Molly Ringwalds, they ain't got nothing on the Chee-Weez though! Happy New Year, Everyone! Best wishes for 2002. *kisses MILKMAN*
2001 Remembered:
*Milkman
*Clint got me -and surprised me- good on Valentine's Day. heh heh.
*Ms. Joann passed away
*We saw lots and lots of movies and concerts
*I found out I hate working the Spaghetti choir fund raiser
*September 11th.
*Destin, Florida
*Going out isn't as appealing as it once was
*TV and lying in bed are
*Realizing there is nothing to keep me here if I ever have to move
*The Tori concert! Autograph! Pictures!
*How to double your vacation days
*Being appreciated / Not being appreciated
*Happy. Content. Smiling. Kisses.
